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I should be flattered.

There are people who literally spend hours of their life every day following me. People who obsessively save every work of art I post online. People who comment and hypothesize about everything I do, even when I am not doing anything. People who make their own comics, websites, and blogs because of me. People who meticulously sift through my stats, my comments, and near-decade old journals. People who obsessively screen-capture everything I say or do anywhere online. People who seemingly have no life other than to talk about every aspect of my own. People who, day in and day out, never tire of talking about me to their friends online.

These people are amazing and I am continually astounded by them and the things they come up with... over a worthless and unimportant cartoonist.

Not even a good cartoonist either. Just an average, slightly stubborn, mediocrely popular on a dubious website... cartoonist. Not a politician with real influence in the world. Not a famous movie actor. Not a famous humanitarian. Not even a person in any sort of position of power. Just a stupid cartoonist making stupid comics.... on the internet. A cartoonist who's very existence is insignificant and pointless in the grand scheme of things.

I really should be flattered.

They spend all that time and energy following me when there are worse things in the world around them. They obsess over me when they should be working on their own stuff. They refuse to leave me when others have told them to. They hang on my every word and action, waiting for me to dictate how their lives will continue. They keep my websites earning money, even when I'm not posting anything. They buy my products, and write me reviews. They correct my work so I don't have to. They keep people reminded of me, when no one cares. They bring me up to their friends, exposing my name to others and making sure that I continue to be well known instead of letting me drift back into the nether-voids of the internet.

The only reason I am famous in any way, is because of them. The only reason anyone cares about me is because of them. The only reason people known my name and talk about me to this day, is because of them. They are the reason I continue to make art. They are my truest fans. They are my most devoted following.

And I am truly grateful for their help.

Thank you.
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VoiceInsideMyHead Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I know it's a little late posting in this particular journal, but I wanted to find one that was at least slightly relevant to post this link. theoatmeal.com/comics/making_t…
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Darkrose42 Featured By Owner Jan 21, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
You know the solution to how all this can be stopped. And it's so easy.

Just start appreciating critique. Take it seriously. Thank people who take their time to look at your pictures. Even if they're not nice. Swallow down your pride.

Just. Do. It.

Every day that goes by will make it worse. And worse. And worse. Just do it. Get it over with. And think how you happy you'll be when it's over.
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DigitalAdhesive Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Hey Andrew,

It truly is an honor and I feel privileged to count myself among the number of people who enjoy seeing what you're up to from time to time. There are a lot of mediocre cartoonists out there, and plenty of awful ones (myself included), but the rare combination of stubbornness, laziness, pretentiousness, and ignorance wrapped up in a victim-complex bow is so rare that it's difficult to ignore. It's like being the Christian Weston Chandler of cartoonists. That's you, Andrew. That's why so many of us are fascinated.
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kaput6no Featured By Owner Jan 19, 2013   Digital Artist
No offense, but if you don't want to be bothered by trolls, don't ask for their attention with journal entries like that. :no:

It's like someone who hates ducks but can't stop covering himself in bread crumbs next to a pond...
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Livingpixel Featured By Owner Jan 22, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
That analogy just got you a llama.
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wikikid Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
my little brother is a fan of yours, he likes all your comics especially the so your a cartoonist one, he gt sad when you said u might end it
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Rudfud Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
Well, that post did not end how I expected it to.
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AlexanderComics Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Andrew, it's never ok to say your worthless, because obviously you're worth something to quite a few people. I myself enjoy your work but I don't obsess over it. I read any comic that pops up into my inbox and then move on and very seldom favorite any of your work. I will continue to read anything of yours that comes my way, I also love your style but in the end I have my own shit to get done. I have some comics, characters and a toy line that I want to show the world. None the less, keep that art and comics of yours coming.
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nb1299 Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2013
I would still be a true fan (positively) if you hadn't blocked me on my other account because of asking what materials you used for your comics. I really was pissed off. Now I know why you did it, because I asked two times on your page but it really wasn't worth it Andrew... I was enjoying your work, laughing with your comics, watching you, faving your comics, etc. Why did you have to go and block me? I was just asking what materials you used...

Please do not block me on this account as well because I truly like your work and I will not continue to "spam" on your page. I will keep watching you and forgive you for blocking me but I was frustrated that you would do such a thing... I just wanted an answer because I was inspired and I wanted to start a comic myself...
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TomPreston Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
If you are who I think you are, you asked me far more than 2 times. You were spamming up my page, asking it repeadedly on deviations, and sending me notes.

Spam, good or bad, is a block in my books. That's why.
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akreon Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Oh, for fuck's sakes Andrew. So why wouldn't you just answer his question? It would take you a minute and he would bugger off forever. That is exactly how you produce your own enemies. People can hold a grudge over the smallest things and that is just a fact of life and you can't do anything about it.
Just as Thomas Hudson Jones once said "Friends may come and go, but enemies accumulate"

You really should start doing some damage control before shit spirals off.
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TomPreston Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Because, if it's the same person I'm thinking it is, someone else already answered him since he was spamming up my page so much before I blocked him for continuing to pester me. Of course this is all conjecture anyway since I don't know what his other user name was, around when it happened, or where he posted on my DA pages. If he could provide that info, I might be able to look into it and see for myself and give a much better answer for why I blocked them.

Regardless, I don't block people willy nilly (despite what people may say). If someone's spamming up my page with tons of notes (for good or bad) and being a royal tool... they get blocked. That's about all there is to it. I don't block someone just for asking me 2 questions in a row, so there's obviously got to be more to the story than what they're saying.
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nb1299 Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2013
I only asked you 2 times though, politely. I'm not the user you think I am. I love your work, I really do but I was just asking you a question to help me improve my art.
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Darkrose42 Featured By Owner Jan 21, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Conceptart.org is also a great art community with lots of stuff to learn and people who give you sincere critique on your work. Maybe this helps too? But I guess you knew that already anyway :)
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nb1299 Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2013
Thanks for the advice :) I'll check it out.
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Darkrose42 Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
You're welcome :)
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holyfadedsoldier Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2013
if you want to start a comic, invest in some varied pens [there are plenty of them out there, but go to your local art store (michaels, hobby lobby or other in the usa) and you'll see them]. there are varying sizes, the smallest i've found [at hobby lobby] being a nice .005. that's really nice for small details. these pens can range up, and the biggest i own is a .8. line width is important in a comic, especially one that's in greyscale, if you so choose to do it in that. if you're looking to do it in colour, there are various colouring tools you can use. if you want, you could tell me if you want it purely digital or traditional, and i could help you? i'd be more than happy to. while i'm not a comic artist, and as of right now i'm only thinking about starting one, i still know what could be helpful to you. =D
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nb1299 Featured By Owner Jan 19, 2013
Ok thanks for the advice :) You're so kind and helpful! I'll look into it.
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holyfadedsoldier Featured By Owner Jan 19, 2013
you're welcome. =D
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Noniway Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
When you first started posting journals about how you didn't care about all the people that were harassing you, I thought, "Alright, good for him."

But now it seems like you post as many journals like this as you do your work. I like your stuff, Andrew, and I think you're really talented. But when you say stuff like, "The only reason people know my name and talk about me to this day, is because of them." it sounds like you're dealing with some big self esteem baggage.

If you haven't already, I really think you should see someone about the harassment and bullying you've been experiencing online. A lot of people have suffered, and even taken their own lives, because of the stupid shit people say in comments and message boards. Just because you're a famous artist doesn't make you exempt from having feelings and being hurt by hateful words.

I really admire you for sticking up for yourself, but don't feel like you have to do it alone or without help.

Maybe this journal was just a really sarcastic vent, I get that. Just make sure you don't let all the haters out there get to you.

:)
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GlassBottleDemon Featured By Owner Apr 11, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
If you haven't already, I really think you should see someone about the harassment and bullying you've been experiencing online. A lot of people have suffered, and even taken their own lives, because of the stupid shit people say in comments and message boards. Just because you're a famous artist doesn't make you exempt from having feelings and being hurt by hateful words.

He's not a fucking teenager, he's an adult. He can handle this on his own. Don't pander to him, bro, he's playing the victim here.
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Noniway Featured By Owner Apr 11, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
Last time I checked, you don't need to be a teenager to suffer the negative affects of bullying and harassment. Maybe he can't handle it on his own. Maybe this is his way of reaching out for help. How does it benefit anyone to try and belittle him and say that he's 'pandering'. I sure hope you don't have this outlook with anyone you know personally.

I've seen some of the shit he's received, he isn't 'playing' the victim, he is one.
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GlassBottleDemon Featured By Owner Apr 11, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Reaching out for help? Is that why he's posting journals like this? [link]
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blu-kitsune Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I can't tell if this is sincerity or sarcasm... eheh.
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akreon Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Andrew, to be honest this kind of journals are worrying. If one of my friends would constantly, intentionally try to gather negative attention in such a masochistic manner I would drag his ass to a therapist. What you are doing in not healthy. I just hope you have someone who will help you snap out of it.
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TomPreston Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Bad days come and go. Yesterday was a really low shitty fucked up day.

I need an editor. Someone who will proofread everything I post before I hit send, because I clearly can't be trusted to use my own best judgement.
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apoehler Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2013
Why not get one?
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ShadedPanda Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
You're welcome! :D
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Shadowdew6 Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome, I'm not one of those people who obsesses but I do follow your work and I want to say this on behalf of those who've decided to comment on the deep outlook of the journal instead. They probably just forgot to say it amongst their profound philosophy.
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TheGod2B Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2013
No problem.
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Afterlife93 Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2013  Student General Artist
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BurningResurrection Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2013
it's true
there's no such thing as bad publicity
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catgirl140 Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
lol haters
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Genisay Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
And now my comment makes me sound like a complete idiot.
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Hikari-Dareigan Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
At first I genuinely thought this was directed at your fans and I thought "d'aw, how sweet."


Then I realized that it's directed at trolls/haters/ anti-fans..... and it's fucking brilliant :XD: I know not everyone else will see it this way but I think this is an amazing way to handle the negativity that has accumulated around you for so long. Because it's true, after all; the people who claim they hate your guts are even more obsessive than your fans. Where's the logic in that?



Funnily enough, I learned in science and again in Psychology that 'love' and 'hate' produce very similar brain waves and hormones. I wonder what can be gathered from that...
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MiMiDong Featured By Owner Jan 17, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
...? I don't know if this is serious.
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DannyboyO1 Featured By Owner Jan 17, 2013
You do good work, you attract an audience. You got tapped to do art for brentalfloss, and they were impressed by the breadth of your capabilities. Things are not bad, and you have difficulty accepting that, it looks like. You may be suffering some sort of anxiety or depression... I've just gone through a horrific two weeks of despair that turns out to be migraine. Took a while to diagnose the problem, because light was causing pain, and I was only getting relief while asleep. There are ways to adjust your environment to avoid pain and suffering. Some are medical. (Technically, anything bolstering your health and well-being could fall under that category.)

The belief that you aren't any good... is kinda vain. I mean, it's a defense mechanism against success, intended to stop you from failing through hubris. "Mwa ha haaaa! Bow before me!" Sort of thing. Now, if a few hundred people are saying "You're likable, and you do good work." you have to ask if you're calling them idiots or liars when you claim to be worthless. A healthy response would be closer to "Thanks! It's taken a lot of work, but that's life for you. No alternatives."

I bring up both of these points because your words indicate that your life has some suffering you feel cannot be fought. I think the only enemy that cannot be fought is one that cannot be found. Your problems may not come from where you think they do. Try things, if it's silly, but it helps, it helps. And can lead to solutions. I might not have survived the month without sitting in a darkened room for a bit to mope and found things improving. Take care of yourself.
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MatkatMnM Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
He's talking about his haters.
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coolcat9728 Featured By Owner Jan 17, 2013
I really REALLY thought you were gonna end with thanking your haters. Cause that's what they do... xD But are there people who do this? If there are holy crap. But good job Tom. You have achieved a cult following.
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Heroofdeath Featured By Owner Jan 17, 2013
He is creepily flattered. ^w^ Sounds like a idea for his next comic too. XD
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TAMAnnoying Featured By Owner Jan 17, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
You don't have to be famous to make an impression on a person, even random strangers can imprint on each other even if they only met for a short time. :hug:
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Barefoot-Panda Featured By Owner Jan 17, 2013
I love your stuff but that all sounds like, well, a bridge too far. Y aknow? :)
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Genisay Featured By Owner Jan 17, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Can't say I follow you that religiously, but I do enjoy your work, and get many a good snigger from a lot of your jokes.

When hard times have been bopping you around, it's good to be able to know that there is a mass of people that /do/ like what you are doing. It makes it easier to ignore the ones that don't and keep them from getting under your skin.
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BoxcarChildren Featured By Owner Jan 17, 2013
Im a fan of your artwork but Im not a stalker ^^;
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phantom-jedi1 Featured By Owner Jan 17, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Know that not all of us are that way. Some of us truly do enjoy your work and a new SYAC comic showing up in my RSS feed always makes me smile.

The Internet brings out the worst in people - it's cliche to say, but try not to let it bring you down.
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Cateyes27 Featured By Owner Jan 17, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
It's hard to understand all the hate that flows around. I saw one of your images posted on Imgur and saw no one had credited you. I put your deviantart in a comment so people would know the original artist and that's when I got absolute hate from a few people. Not just, "I don't like him." Just purely dark thoughts. I just didn't understand it. You put a lot of effort into what you do and I doubt they could do better. I don't know you in person so I don't know your temperament(it's what they mainly complained about) but I respect the art you put time into. Why do they have to come out of the wood-works and piss on everything? Your journal is right though. They are giving you more publicity. Very nice way to think about it!
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shiroikira Featured By Owner Jan 17, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
but you arent worthless, no one is.
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Sarru-san Featured By Owner Jan 17, 2013
I read this whole thing in a rude and sarcastic manner.
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JUN-K-TASTIC Featured By Owner Jan 17, 2013   General Artist
Why are you fueling the fire?
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